Ground zero
I’m sitting in my messy little room, trying to get some words out onto this page. If you’ve read my About Me, you already know why I’m here and what keeps me writing.
I recently realized I love writing, though it’s not new, really. I used to write poetry as a child. I started around seven, when I wrote my first poem for my mother, comparing her to my homeland and how much I loved them both. I’m twenty six now, and I’ve left that homeland behind, moving from one place to another, looking for the homeland that will feel like my soul, not just the place I was born.
There’s a real charm in the place we’re born, I won’t deny that. But I think there’s an even bigger charm in finding the place where we manage to be reborn, and that doesn’t have to be a city. It can be about people, connections, a pet you didn’t expect to love this much, a hobby you found by accident, a passion that found you.
That’s what I want Ground Zero to be about, people and community.
I’ve always wondered why we don’t just live as one big family, where everyone sees each other as simply human, body, soul and mind, born completely empty, filled through people, circumstances, families, things that never really depended on us in the first place. Most people didn’t choose to become who they are. Maybe that’s the point where we get our humanity back. Not hate, not destruction, not lies, just love. We need more of it.
Maybe I’m looking for a family bigger than my homeland. Don’t get me wrong though, I love my own family with my whole heart, and they’ll always be the most important people to me.
This project has been on my mind for a long time, in a lot of different shapes and forms. And here I am, with nothing finished yet. My shop is still just an empty page marked coming soon, and honestly, so what. I still have this blog, a place to share my experience with you, and for you to share yours with me.
I’ve always been a little afraid to show up and talk about my hobbies and what I want to do, because I’m just at the beginning, with nothing finished to show. But who said you need something finished? You can show the process instead, and that’s exactly what I want to do most.
I want this to be a build in public kind of project. It feels more alive than anything polished. I understand the pull to wait until things feel ready, but I don’t want to wait anymore, and I’ve always been too honest with myself to start pretending now.